Saturday, January 31, 2009

Errrr!

It is helluh late or helluh early what ever you want to call it. Got home from work around 4a.m. and going to go to sleep soon. Its so weird, when I'm at work I get tired then once I'm home I am wide awake. Ugh... lame. But yeah I don't know how much I'm going to go on like this now that school has started. School is Monday through Thursday and I already am feeling sluggish in class. Bio seems fun yet long and English is well.. English, then Health and Nutrition class seems like an easy class. I hope this time school is better than last year. Slowly drifting away falling asleep. Alrighty then.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Think Different

-Is the glass half full or half empty?
It's based on your perspective quite simply
We're the same and we're not know what I'm saying listen
I aint better than you I just think different

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Spring 2009

School is starting soon! I'm sorta excited haha yet again not really because I know its gonna be all studying and shit. Errr! Anticipated.. I didn't do so well for Fall 2008, so this time around I'm not gonna mess around and get my studies down and give 110%. Currently enrolled in 5 classes - 14 units. Biology, Nutrition, Health & Life Style, English, and Math. Class Monday through Thursday. And the cost of books are damn expensive! FUCK! hahaha. Financial aid gotta help me out. Well those of you who go to school with me, I will see you around campus.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Why?

Why is it what you want, you cant have. Whether it’s because he just got out of a relationship and doesn’t want to get right back into one, or because he lives 2400 miles away from you, or because he doesn’t even know that you exist, or because he is already in a relationship! It seems like it’s the story of my life. I also know that I should just wait it out because you never know what will come along, but still.

Anyways.. How is everyone doing? I am doing well here. Just chilln sorta for now. School is starting soon and a dam floor set is too! Retail can be a bitch.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Here Goes 2009

This is from a section of my diary.

It is 5:47am the first day of the new year. I'm sensing this year is going to be a good year.
For new years eve I worked and got off around 7:45pm. While I was working I made plans to go to a party with Kathleen and Fernan because I know they party. Lol. But yeah it was at a house downtown I would say, it was off 28th street of the 94 west. I guess I had fun.. I saw friends and it was nice to be out. There was some weird people at the party, lets just say a very diverse crowd. But we all had a purpose that night; to have fun, drink, dance, and be out partying it up. It was off to a nice start and I got bored and tired fast. I also saw Drea, omg I missed her and I was really happy to see her, for real! I found out she smokes now, well when she's "tipsy" hahaha. And met her 2 friends, they were nice. The party was killed a little bit before 2am. Then went to Sam's house and chilled. I really didn't plan on staying just have a smoke and leave but I saw Sam and Mickie and we were chatting then I found out they were rollin. Omg, I might be addicted to ecstasy. Not good. So time goes by and the three of us decide to drop. And I kinda miss it, the good and nice feeling. All of life just doesn't worry me and I'm in the "chill" mode. Some way to spend a new year right? I'm supposed to have a new out look on being a better person, PERIOD. Well it is a new year and I want to leave all the issues in the '08 and move on. We are all only getting older and learning every day.
I don't know.. (sigh). I'm getting over working for hollister and want a new job. Because I'm starting school on the 26th. Not far away at all. And I'm going to be starting class from the morning through the day. And working late night shifts do not collabo so well. Errrr. Damn this life, its a blessing yet it feels like a curse. School is going to be tough I already know. I failed the first term of school because I gave up -Basically. I was proud to be in school but the math and english was a lot of work. I was motivated but I guess not motivated enough. I hope and I am going to try this time around. Gosh I need to find a new job that fits my schedule. I want to leave hollister but they pay is awesome and I do not want to go back to minimum wage. Or maybe I just need to be strict on my budget and change my ways of living -that's for sure. I'm going to look and search around because school should always be a top priority. Just remember its a new year and time to change for the better. Well I'm running out of thoughts and its so cold.

Here goes 2009.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Kalistek


Today wasn't the best, just another reminder of life and it's downside. I try to never live the same day twice and just be young, live it to the fullest each day because not everyday of your life is guaranteed. Today is my cousin's 19th birthday and its sad because he left us to be in a better place. Cancer suckks, and it took away a loved ones life. I miss him a lot! And I always think of him. It eats me up inside because I didn't get to say "see ya later." But I guess no one really does -and that's one thing about death, it eats us up inside. He was only 17 when he passed. So young! Really tho. Life is so unfair. Well I'm wishing you a Happy Birthday cousin and I pray for us. I know you're up there watching over me and the fam. The chain was broken and one day the chain will be connected again. Forever in my heart and always loved.